**Big ole bear hugs JoDee and eya**
eya, I'm sorry for your losses... I guess what I'm about to say is kind of selfish... Your words really inspired me, though... Like you said, these past couple of weeks have really shown me how strong I can be without the cancer sticks... And I bet it feels really good to realize how strong you really are... You're going through Hell...and you're doing it without a crutch.
JoDee, I hear you on the irrational fears. I'm prone to them with or without the cigarettes (mostly without). Ohhhh man it's been crazy since Feb. 4th!!! I've been seeing things, hearing things...name a sense and it's messed up. Hell, I might do this quitting thing again just to feel this stoned, again, for free! (JUST KIDDING!!!!) Seriously, what I'm trying to say is that I think irrational thoughts are normal once in a while, and that they will pass with time, just like cravings do. I was thinking of a way I would counter a thought like that... I mean, obviously, your body is healing itself... but when it's hard to believe that, see if it helps to tell your inner junkie that you're not gonna do take any ADDITIONAL risks. Nope, no way, no how.
Heh... To think I logged in here all angry, full of hot air, about to light up because I stubbed my toe. (LOL!) Always a humbling and inspiring experience around the corner. To be fair, I REALLY stubbed my toe. Like, frozen-veggies-on-the-foot, glad-I-have-the-day-off-tomorrow, wish-I-had-medical-insurance stubbed my toe. But still... nothin' like you guys have got going on. So if y'all can hold on, so can I!!!
So hooooold on!!!
